Would you believe me If I told you what I was thinking?

Do u wonder what I had for dinner?

What is in your mind ?

And why are you looking at me that way?

Don’t you see the same beauty as  I?

Do we live in the same way?

What is important to you, If I may ask?

Do you have a purpose as I do?

What do you see when You look into my eye?

Awe many, think it’s a birdybeauty I have fixed my gaze upon.

But they would be wrong! So wrong, indeed!

What do You think is so important to make me stop in my own tracks?

Yes, tis love, I cannot lie, but not the kind you yourself so seek

For I have a purpose in mind, granted within

For I trust and fulfill that purpose with a deep seated need

For you should have the same! Its such a fulfilling way to live

To help another walk yet another mile

For you see my purpose today

was to just sit here being so still!

to look like a painting for someone to catch hold

till one person could happen across my path

that person today was You alas!

For I was told someone needed a smile!

And God gifted Me with this red beauty for more than just a while

Not to boast nor shout about!

But to share in a time of one’s need with good cheer to seed

For God has sent you specifically upon my path

To remind you the good in life still exist, not tainted by the past

And you have forgotten how to just sit, admire, and laugh.

Life is too short to forget the things we need , things that last

So my new friend stop to smell the roses!

and Live well my friend and learn again to love indeed!

A Friend:

Riding along life’s highway

upon bikes made of dreams

Switching gears as needed

Passing crystal-clear streams

dangers unaware

with scrapes across the curbs

causing  falls at times

but then there they stand so tall,

the friends we need

A friend: a smile within the heart indeed

The hills we face

Both up and down

Avoiding troubles placed

Yet there they stand

Just around the bend

A friend: To steer us clear

With Extended hands…

Awaiting a hug , Yet once again

Shared times of pain

Many things prospered and lost

Yet love to gain

Disregarded cost

many sit till coffee cup’s end

time taken not of need

no time seems wasted,

merely an investment to heed

a friend again: someone willing to share

their own piece of pie

sweetened by life with love so tied

Placed when we forget

to love ……, To learn ….., And share….

Life’s pleasures and treasures found

a friend  indeed: 

by definition’s sound ………

Someone willing to…… simply… be there..

to account the best within

and the things we need to be

to remind us of our song enlaced to enhance as sounds begin

To place within our hand …the beauty of a rose

then say, “I feel right now you need this just a bit more than most!”

Sheets entangled, Toes still hold a slight tingle

Time spend in passion, will become days to remember

Her resonance returns with an echo

Yet no distractions can grasp hold

Love’s embrace still holds full attention bound

As she lies there upon her pillow, sound

Her face turned to mine; yet eyes closed to savor

A slight smile still lingers

Shifting so slightly, I lean to place a softly crafted kiss

There, just below the hairline, as to not disturb

I sit, just staring, at the lines that form her face

Trying to take in this whole embrace

Feeling this is more than one should be given,

a gift, freely given, entrusted for sure

Recalling arms that held so tightly merely seconds before

Now calm, and placid to adore

I run my fingers thru what seems silken hair

She seems to slightly lean into my hand,

from the involuntary need to share

She fully embraced love’s sweet grasp

No recall of times past, nor her own needs to mass

But to share, to bond, to bleed

As only a heart can with love’s blossomed heave

And the two have become one

No time to take heed, no worry of things to come

Knowing what was shared cannot be undone.

Her beauty held within a hand

She holds her head unto the sky

Her thoughts seem to drift with why

Where did all the time so go ?

has she lived, really lived?,  she must know

Kids , car, this and that …

all this luggage in tow.

Her face has thus  begun to crow

Her eyes, she thinks, have lost their flare

She recalls her beauty’s look

Then realities placed,

a simple glance recalls the different case

She wonders if this is really fair

A cruel joke placed unaware

But then again a thought begins to contemplate

She worries, she frets her age due

, but as always, God is faithful to renew

As small fingers cross her hand         

She feels the warmth flow over heart’s land

She recalls the memories of the day

She fell in love with the beauty of another

The birth and spender of her own wonder

But as hard lessons learned,

only time can set one free

heart begins to feel

Pain causes to bleed

with scares and emotion’s flow

love can now come fully clean

To truly breath for the first time

As though filled to overflow.

She takes in life and sighs a small reprieve

Like the first step upon the freshly fallen snow

She looks more deeply

Beneath the core

All this now seem more beautiful than before

Things lost, only vain

But, the linger of a thought

Can there be anything…. left to adore?

For the gain is waiting just at hand

To be enlightened unto a fairyland

life more full than an empty stand

She’s deep in thought as arms embrace

across the shoulders they take their place

then a hand brushes across her cheek so soft

no desire to retreat

by loves sweet touch as only one can

she realizes just behind,  he stands

He has been thru thick and thin as well

he withstood these very thoughts ,

yes, his too ,these thoughts, to dwell

but his love has brought full circle

now love is his, in hand, to cast upon

the one he loves with all to bestow

and recall with her the memories, to make them glow!

to warm the heart from days of cold

a thought she can take in hand,

while clutched during winter’s enveloped hold.

The Castle within this Heart of Mine

Thoughts cross my mind ….Like the crash within a joust

Armor laden … This will be…. no fair fight

Tho chivalry be gleaming, Integrity, as well, abounds

Yet fate seems to be looming,  What will happen next?

Will I get a vision, Can I known my very plight?

Upon this velvet chair I steed, I stare upon the walls of this place

Walls fit so tightly all together, With stones of an embrace

As solid as one can wish, To defend deeds of the wrong

Yet will they know the difference?  Of a love that may been found

What If they withhold love’s penetrating stance, Yearning for my heart to behold given within the moment of single glance.

No chances taken …..Thoughts of haste to make

I must be ready for this calling, No time spared to waste

to leave the safety of this fortress , to escape this very place

the Grounds around this castle…..That’s seems…no place to find the mace

Within the beauty of a garden , Vines with roses climbing

A fragrance filled breath of air , Now fills my lungs, encased

Tree covered with their shades, Will love call amid this space , upon the wings of wind

will it weave these trees and vines entangled , can it scale the wall’s encompass

or be choked within a daze, and end without its splendor?

Will it merely vanish? Or will it die with all dismay?

A new plan to me revealed, One of necessity for this pursuit

To be within the open , or so……. just in case

I walk between the gates secured , To face a fury maybe forth? Within an area without defense

Arms held open….. with a wide, expansive way

Oh, the lunacy of this craze.

Enemies may come calling, No time to grab a sword

They may shred this heart divine, No fight left within

To fill this quest of longing, To find a love to be.

I stand here undefended

Merely wishing fancy flights, Wondering when she will be calling

This dream of mine beheld….Waiting for a love….

Made to engulf my very being…..To be plucked from the safety of this vine

A second to be mused, Then taste the juice beneath the rind

A feast made for the pleasure , A place setting for the chosen.

Only known to those who are willing.. Who stand without their armor!

They defy all reason and this test of time for a season!

No logic needed……A simple oath that must be taken

A splendor to be mounted

While accepting a touch of a Merlin-esk magic!

To bind with this heart of mine.

To be forged…….by  the flaming love of another

and  be christened by destiny’s divine.

The box

To live a life

One must look within

To assess damage done

Or see good’s glow

Hindsight can then reveal

But to find the true gift

The present surreal

To find an answer before life’s riff

Why live inside a box?

When souls are made to sore

To be confined within

The story so sad, untold

With no paint upon the walls

Spirits suppressed

No bulbs enlighten the halls

Alone, and dead

Time seems to stall

If only the choice was made

To stretch the confine’s hold

Then burst the fabricade

To break this mold

So hard despite love’s loss

Daydreams replaced

Washed down the sink of life’s parade

Relationships made to confine

And thoughts in check so bind

Minds now free, thoughts to flow

New colors, bold

To choose to live, outside the box

To find , to live , to merely let go

To find that the comfort zone is not a friend

The plight of the Butterfly

“My Dearest Butterfly”, says the wind
just where do you wish to go today , For I have no course as yet
I just drift as God sees fit

My Dearest Butterfly,

I can tell you I have seen…  some beautiful places,
places that no man has even been
so beautiful they can rival the splendor of your wing’s color
and seem like home to you…. When you could see them for yourself.

Again I ask you where you wish to go
Are you sure that you really know that I am the wind?
as the wind, I have such a free spirit within
At times I glide here and there so flighty, carefree
I touch what I may….. along the path I flow
I can make many people smile as I drift to and fro
Many try to see me…? yet Very few do..

for they know not what to look for, at times this has been sad.
Yet, I’m very happy to have left a smile just the same

So Dear butterfly …

I have a question to ask..

Are you sure you know where you’re heading, Do you have purpose called?

Are you sure you know where you wish to go?, I’ve traveled this life so far

I’ve seen so many faces along my way, Yet I have been all-alone because… perfection has not had her way.

Yet,  I look at you dear butterfly ….

I see a most welcome site………….Your matched with me so well

Consider your fanciful flight, For you alone can ride in stride

No burden to be changed, You can sail with me wherever

With such an effortlessly span!

So my dearest butterfly

Lets lift our heads and pray

Lets ask God to bless, then send us on our way

then drift together with God’s ever-loving grace

we’ll set this course uncharted, with a smile, a glance,

and for once within my life, I will know that I can say

My dearest butterfly , “will you stay with me a while”

for I’ve longed for such a friend, to love what I do see

to see in all the same, to have you there to share the experience, just the same!

This life as been so full of much, Yet, I can’t continue on…

You see that’s why I’m sitting now, Instead of being who I am

The world needs the wind and the splendor that I am!

Yet, all I ask for return …Is someone to share the world I see

To make me feel like I belong, And to embrace, then hold forever strong.

So Dear butterfly you see

Your more than welcome to spread your wings

And start your great journey now.

And mast your being with mine and sail your life so free

Yes, I offer to you all things I know to be

You may have what I have yet that is from the past

More important to me I wish to find, Someone who knows…what it would be like to ride within the wind.

So my dearest butterfly…

I have to ask one last time

Are you wanting the same from me

Do you know I am the wind ?

If so take my hand and we’ll float among the clouds

Then we will see just where we go., And find life’s surprise

We will see life at its best, We will discover what is to be

One day I’ll sit again and think upon thoughts so dear…

This butterfly and me!

I have a need to be………..

At times a strength,

a strength that must stand

That knows it can face any and all

No adversaries to tall

One that withstands

It must protect

It must prevail

for those to protect

within its trusting enclosed embrace

I have a need to be ………

As soft as the brush of a rose petal

Cast to the wind

To drift along

as the wind so flows

unbridled …..

carefree …..

ever so free to be just itself.

I have a need to be………

A simple, carefree thought

One that will warm even the coldest heart

To be a hope to those around

To just be without a sound

Nothing spoken

Just felt so deep within.

I have a need to be……….

As gentle as a breeze

that caress the grassy plains

Drifting along without a cause

without harm

To just be a pleasure for those

it may touch as it moves along.

I have a need to be………..

As the depth of the ocean

To house my sprouting ideas

To encompass my yearnings

To give birth to my resoundings

To be washed across the sands

To flow with the pull of the moon and the stars

To have purpose,

To have cause.

I have the need to be……….

As something shared

A bond only held between two

A connection

A guiding hand held with trust and affection

To be completed

to be the most

to those for which I care.

Living life behind a window waiting for life to happen

A Girl sits staring out the pane of a window,
thinking it was taken from her once upon a time….
so wrongly before her full store was given……
Her love uncomplete
No thoughts for the future…
Reduced to now stare out this window……
Her life on the outside yet unattained…….

To become such a woman standing proud and upright
To have the life she had once wished  to have for herself
Deserving to be happy, unbridled and free
to freely bless and given to those in need

She has endured such times of trouble…
Her efforts past seem to be wasted
Yet time has consumed her…….
She now sits in her chair looking….
staring out  her the window………
Longing to find her true love to fill all her needs….
to have all that has been promised and wished as before………
to be united as one, with love so complete.

She standing, waiting, and longing to see…..If life will happen…….
Time has tinted her vision…
Walking through life seems as only a dream

Her dreams have become a mere image of what were once before…..
as if only shrouded by haze
she feels so lost, confused, her head spinning and dazed.
Wishes so impossible to attain.
Yet she reaches forth her hand in Faith ……..
And continues her efforts as needed……
for her desire comes from the strength and blessing of her heavenly father

Her happiness to be found
Her desires completed by the kind heart of a man.
Two hearts joined…… A love that knows no bounds…….
A distance easily covered
The clock stops ticking……time holds no meaning
These rooms with windows can confine no more…..

A love born of need………
Destiny holds forth her hand…. She smiles upon the two
She blesses their hurts and heals their pains endured.......
then wishes for the end to their longing…….
to have all they wished for, for such a long time 
To finally find what has been missing……

To find the piece of a puzzle held between their two hands
They alone gifted the power to place this piece in life’s puzzle
Ending things as before…….
to stop times flow…it’s past to ignore.
The two can stop looking out their windows as before

They turn to each other………..
To see from within...... no glass between them…..
to see what they have been missing……
while staring out those windows with distorted vision…..
windows slammed by life’s cruel demand
for such a long, harsh, and endless amount of time.

Unfair as it may be.   Yet…….. I smile!
Knowing happiness may have been found
My window flung open…    My soul set free…..
No longer willing to look through a window

A life worth living……. no longer mere wishing
The plague of loneliness now gone…..

To sail the oceans…..
to ride the tide with the dolphins
to see the stars in the heavens…
to realize they were made for us to share.

To hold what I have so longed for………
A love so delicate and true ………
Tender, innocent ……one that will withstand…..
All of life’s hammering.
One born with a purpose……

To complete the two as one…... as it should have been
bound with a knot that cannot be undone....to never be broken.  
To know I have found my lover , my friend , the very breath I need to breathe.

To look no longer out this window …to get out of my chair  …….
Life is no longer out of reach just beyond this window……..
realize my happiness is standing ……beside me………
as I  feel the warmth of her hand as she so gently touches.
Life complete.  No longer awaiting ……for life to just happen.

Kelly Winter 2006